Navigating the Unknown: My Journey with Systemic Inflammatory Response Syndrome

Navigating the Unknown: My Journey with Systemic Inflammatory Response Syndrome
A few months ago I was diagnosed with systemic inflammatory response syndrome (SIRS). Something the Dr said, if I didn't get under control, would eventually kill me. I haven't really shared much about it because, needless to say, the news kind of hit hard. Especially since I live a pretty healthy lifestyle. 

I knew things were off in my body. I felt like it was giving out on me and couldn't figure out exactly why. So I found a functional medicine dr who also happens to be an herbalist. Thankfully he's one to get to the root of the cause and not just prescribe meds, which is what I was looking for, because let's face it, I wasn't about to fill my body with meds for symptoms. 

I've been doing a lot of research and learning about systemic inflammation since then. What I've learned is this. So many things can set off an inflammatory response. Our bodies are supposed to react this way to aid in healing. But it can easily get out of control. And when it does, it can be the cause for so many diseases. (Oh, and my root causes? Mold and long covid.) 

Health is so so important to me. And it's time to step up my holistic game. So here are some changes I've made and I will continue to make changes as I learn more. 

*I'm eating a mostly Mediterranean diet. So many benefits, including anti-inflammatory.
*I'm loading up on healthy, natural supplements.
*I've tested to find what foods may be wreaking havoc on my body and paying attention to how they affect me when I eat them.
*I've given up my nightly glass of wine.
*I've switched to a 0% antiperspirant deodorant. If you didn't know, antiperspirants clog your pores and keep your body from properly releasing toxins.
*While I've used a natural cleaner in my home for years, I'm learning more about hidden toxic chemicals (like in makeup, and contacts, and who knows what else) so I can make changes where needed.

Things I'm continuing to do:
*I'm moving my body daily, usually with yoga but occasionally throw in other low-impact options.
*I'm continuing to eat clean but do allow the occasional treat (usually involves bread, eggs, or red meat) without beating myself up over it, also taking notice to how I feel afterward. So let's just say, I'm continuing with mindful eating. 
*I choose natural cleaning products and do my best to avoid toxic chemicals in my home.
*I give myself continuous pep talks and remind myself of all the things I can do, not allowing myself to sink into the hole of what I can't. 

So many things are out of our control. It's so important to recognize where you can and then do it. Our bodies are the only place we HAVE to live. Don't you think we owe ourselves the respect to make it a healthy home to be in?

The Transformation Within: How I Found My Calling as a Holistic Life Coach

The Transformation Within: How I Found My Calling as a Holistic Life Coach
I’ve been revamping my website and while doing so, started thinking about my journey and how it has brought me to where I am today. How it brought me to becoming a Holistic Life Coach. So I figured, if I’m revamping my site, might as well also bring my blog back to life. And what better way to start than to share my journey. So, here we go! (And it’s going to be a long one, y’all. So bear with me.)

I suppose you could say it began when I decided to go into psychology, although I had no idea this is the road it would eventually lead me down.I’ve always had a heart for helping others. (I blame my parents and upbringing for that.) Learning how the mind works and why we do the things, and ways to help work through those things seemed the logical way to go. It took me several years, as a working single mom, to complete my degree. But I did it! Now what?

I started out in an Intervention Behavior Program at a middle school, working in an Autism specific classroom. Then moved onto working with a counseling service based at a small town school where I helped kiddos dealing with neglect, abuse, and mental health. Next up was a mental health hospital where I worked with people of all ages, young kids all the way to adults. My home unit, and happy place, was the adolescent unit. I know, I’m crazy. I’ve spent over 15 years, now, in the mental and behavioral health field. Through these jobs, I’ve learned to truly see a person for who they were. It’s been my job to offer a safe place, to truly listen to another’s needs and pay attention to their thinking process. It’s been my job to teach coping and life skills to help when they went back out into the real world. It’s been my job to look at the why and help guide them to a better, happier story. Talk about pressure! But I’ve truly loved it.

My journey continued to slowly move me in a holistic direction through my own personal life. My dad passed away in 2015. He was sick for years. I mean years. I think we tracked it back about 20 years before he passed. He gradually, oh so gradually, went downhill. I don’t really remember how it started. Maybe with his fibromyalgia diagnosis? I honestly don’t remember. I just know my very active (high school star athlete active) dad eventually became sedentary and unable to even walk by the time he passed. We never got any real diagnosis but I’m willing to bet that all the medications (I’m talking pages of medications my mom had to keep to keep up with it all) and lack of a healthy diet played a very large role. He did what he knew to do, there were just so many unanswered questions and we were all learning as we went. He wanted us to somehow use his experience to help others avoid the same path. (My dad was seriously amazing, y’all. And thinking of others up to his very last breath.) We all took that to heart. And this is when I purposely set out on a journey, even though I still didn't quite realize where it was leading me.

Onto even more personal life happenings. The first half of my adult life found me in a string of toxic, abusive relationships. It wasn’t until 2016 I started to really hear what a family friend and counselor had said to me a few years prior. “You have to figure out why you’re drawn to these abusive men.” Me? Abusive men? Why I would never! Until I realize I had, yet again. (I’ll address all of this further in another blog. Or maybe a book. Because I could seriously write one.) I took these words to heart. Finally. And I started working on me. I’d sit with myself for long periods of time, self-reflecting. I dug into personal development, started eating right, and working out. I learned to love me again. It truly saved my life. And I can say, toxicity of any kind is no longer allowed in my life.

Then came my health problems. I have lived with fibromyalgia myself since I was 19. I learned early on to listen to my body and always did well managing without meds. Then in 2018 I took a fall while playing volleyball. I landed, but my feet didn’t. Still not sure what happened there. But to this day I still struggle with hip issues because of it. I have also recently been diagnosed with long haulers and mold illness. I am choosing to treat everything holistically and working with a functional medicine dr/herbalist to do that.

And now here we are! All of this has led me to a love and passion I didn’t know existed. It’s led me to pursuing certifications as a yoga instructor, personal trainer, and nutrition coach. I’ve got multiple certifications in holistic health and wellness. I’ve got a library’s worth of books on nutrition, yoga, mindset, and spiritual healing. I truly believe God gave us what we need to truly live a healthy, happy life. We just have to choose to tap into it.

I'd love to help you on your own journey! Shoot me a message and let me know how I can help.

xoxo Angela

Continuing to trust the flow...

Continuing to trust the flow...

Y’all, I’m going to get real for a minute. Daily life has been a struggle for me the last few months. I’d blame it on fibromyalgia but I know it’s not that. I’ve never struggled quite like this with my fibro. I learned at a very early age (I was diagnosed at the age of 19) how to manage that and live a normal, active life with it. But man, since testing positive in October of last year, life has been a struggle!

If you follow me on social media (and if you’re reading this, chances are real good you do), I’m willing to bet it looks like I’ve got all my strength and energy back. It looks like my life is back to normal. Let me tell you, it’s not.

I took a step back from my “normal” job to focus on my health. And I’ve been doing that. I’ve been moving my body, even on days I don’t want to and working on getting my nutrition back. But let me tell you, those things are hard! Moving through my workouts is a struggle more often than not. My body just doesn’t want to move. I drag and I move slow. Nutrition isn’t horrible but could definitely use some help in the veggie department. Thank you loss of taste. And then the brain fog and concentration issues. Ugh!

But I keep going. Giving up on my health is not an option. 

You’ve probably also noticed I’m moving forward with my fitness and nutrition classes and working on getting my business up and running. Again, I refuse to give up. Giving up is not in my genes.

So I push. And push. And push. My body frequently tells me I need to slow down. And I try. But I also know there’s a fine line between rest and laziness. Finding that line is not always an easy one for me. I tend to overdo it before my body forces me to rest. But I’m trying. I’m trying to trust the flow of this new norm. I’m trying to trust my body to tell me what it needs most. 

I am forever learning to trust the flow and trust the process. But let me be honest, as long as that flow and process is in a constant state of movement, I’m good (mentally). When it decides to slow down, or heaven forbid, take a break, I struggle. 

One. Day. At. A. Time.

xoxo Angela

P.S. I don't have a guide to managing this long haul stuff yet. But I'm sure I will in the future! However, what I do have, is a free guide to managing your fibro naturally. You can grab that here. 

Learning to love me again

Learning to love me again

“You’ve changed.” 

“You’re right. I have. And I have no intention of ever going back." 

This was a very brief conversation I had with my ex-husband shortly before our marriage completely crumbled. He had been great at making excuses for why he couldn’t (or wouldn’t) be the man I met and married. He had changed, and not for the better, in our short 5 years of marriage. 

He threw his comment “You know what? You’ve changed too.” back at me. I thought for a second. He wasn’t wrong. I had changed. I was still changing. I was on a very important journey and had no intention of slowing down or going back. 

I had been introduced to a world of self-care, self-love, and self-discovery. My new world was surrounded by people who not only wanted the same for themselves, but cheered me on in my own journey. 

I was loading myself up with daily personal-development, attending team calls with like-minded people, working out regularly, learning how to fuel my body with healthy foods, attending in-person events with tens to thousands of others on similar journeys, with a similar purpose and goal in mind. Why, oh why, would I stop? And go back to a me who constantly questioned herself, had no self-worth whatsoever, and no clue which way was up and which way was down? Absolutely never! 

And why? Why would someone who claimed to love and want to protect me want me to? 

Y’all, I had changed. He had changed. Neither of us was budging. I was told to leave our home and never come back. I did. With no car, no money to my name (he had taken our joint account $700 in the negative to be sure), no job, and no home to call my own. But I left with my life. I left with my sanity. I left with my head held high, knowing that I had absolutely made the right decision, even if it was a hard one and hurt. 

That was 5 years ago. I’m still on my journey. I’ve had minor set backs here and there. But I’ve kept my promise to never go back. I’ve kept my promise to continually work on me. And I’ve had so many people on my side, cheering me on the whole time. 

Y’all, know your worth. Refuse to settle or set your entire being aside for another. You can’t fill from an empty cup. And you are so, so important to this world.